Different?

u know these days is very special to me, cuz ive been in the dark for so long n am out, and let me tell u it aint pretty....i dunno why it took me so long to come out, maybe sometimes our demons wanna keep us in the dark, want to suck the light, hope, strength from our soul, or maybe sometimes u convince urself that this is my world n i cant change.. thats what iv been livin in....i was haunted by my demons for so long...i was weak, so weak that i surrendered...i wasnt doin anything...pushed my friends away, pushed my family away....i was like: this is my world and i don want u in it.....but not because i hated them(my family or friends), But its because i hated myself...i didnt want them to have anything to do with a creature like me...i gave this a looong thought, why am i doin this? and it hit me like a freight train...its cuz i am so sick of this world we're livin in that i had to isolate myself from it...why? i dunno, maybe cuz am different...maybe i felt that theres no place for me in this life...but all this s*** ive been through made me realize somethin...
even if ur different, even if every1 cares abt things that u don give a crap abt...even if ur mind works in a different way, u have to blend in the fabric of society....u have to roll with it, maybe u can change how some ppl think, maybe u can learn somethin new from them...don just isolate urself from ppl...i think bein' different is a bliss...